I really just want to ask Jon if I should just give up on him completely.
Though I also want to know if he wants me to give up on him completely. Which are two different things.
I already know that someone is going to start trying for me now, despite my warnings to him about how I am right now.
I feel like shit shit shit.
I kind of hate Jon for this, but of course I don't hate him.
I can't hate him.
BUT I DO SO MUCH.
But I love him to fucking death.
And no matter what I want to at least be his friend no matter how painful it is.
Because I'm pathetic.
The sad thing is he already said to me that he is busy the next three weekends which means I won't see him in all likelihood for over three weeks, but I still feel like this.
I'm still confused.
I'm an idiot.
And so? What will you do about this mess?
ReplyDeleteYou should be deciding on this for yourself, not asking Jon what to do.
And the connecting song lyrics thing? That's pretty inane, Jon wouldn't respect that at all. He lost his cutesy attitude for shit like that when he broke up with Chelsea. Especially Ima Robot. From what he's told me, i'd assume THAT music is held in the highest for things that are past. I must seem really rapacious here, but you need to do things for your own conscience and not for what he would want.
Not to mention that you haven't really actively pursued any amount of time with him too recently (assuming Jon would mention if you guys planned to get together anytime soon).
I wonder what he would say if he knew you used Dynamite to refer to him, it sure wouldn't be a cheerful thought.
~S
dude that was totally unessesary.
ReplyDeleteugh.
sorry for that katie...
ReplyDeletei am curious as to whom s is.
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